Well, friends, I am 37 weeks pregnant.
My. Patience. Is. Gone.
For real, though, I am so ready to meet our new little guy and upgrade our family of four to a family of five!
Our older boys are also anxious and excited. They keep asking when baby brother is coming.
I now attend doctor appointments every week.
Last week, we were disappointed to find out that there was nothing happening with my cervix.
We also go the news that our baby is still sitting breech and has been since about 28 weeks.
This brought on a whole lot of unnecessary worry and anxiety for me, but it happened, nonetheless.
My other two boys, if you recall, were both natural deliveries, no c-section needed.
This baby is proving to have his own agenda and I’m not sure that I’m totally OK with that.
I had been having Braxton Hicks contractions, but they have stopped. I was really hoping to at least be dilating at this point in the game, but that hasn’t seem to be happening.
Just been a rough week.
My doctor referred me to a website called Spinning Babies.
They have some pretty tried and true techniques to get a breech baby to flip head down.
I have been spending a lot of time on my head (literally) this last week.
I keep getting told I have time still and to not worry.
Honestly, this is the worst thing you can tell me… the baby is NOT getting any smaller, nor is he gaining anymore room.
It already hurts when he decides to move around during his awake cycles, I CANNOT even imagine how much it will hurt if he gets the chance to turn himself around.
Having a c-section is scary, new territory for me. Normally, I can deal with the idea of surgery, but I just don’t want to cross this bridge. I have two other busy boys to tend to.
I don’t have anyone that can AFFORD to take time off of work to help me those first couple of weeks after baby comes.
Prayer and hope is what has kept me going this last week.
I am frustrated.
I am stubborn.
I refuse to settle for a c-section.
God knows what he’s doing and soon, I will too.
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.